2018 Goals - Do more for me


My 2018 resolutions life goals

◌ Do more for me.
◌ Use what I've already got.
◌ Build upon to something better.

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◌  Paint more. Paint often. I've got so many art supplies that had been gathering dust. Canvases, paints, watercolors, gouache and more. I want to paint more often and build upon the skills I learned while in art school. I've seen that it's improved my mood over the past few months and want to continue painting.

◌  Get outside more. I'm way too pale. Let's get my freckles darker. Hiking, running, walking and riding my bike are all on my list of things to keep doing more of.

◌  Get back into shape. Indoor rock climbing was something I absolutely loved. I canceled my membership when my work schedule was so crazy I had no time to go. So I plan to  go at least once a week. I've also been dancing, lifting weights, running, hiking and working out with friends. Let's see if I can drop some weight and tone back up.

◌  Make time for friends.

◌  Get at least ONE IT certification. I'm currently studying for CCNA.

◌  Improve my video gaming skills. This might seem silly to a lot of people but I'm trying to get myself into more positives KDR in gaming.

◌  Speak Swedish. Visit Sweden.
A big goal for me this year is to finally visit my friends in Sweden. I had the opportunity last year but traded it for our UK trip. So this year I've made it one of my biggest priorities to save up money for. I plan to attend Dreamhack Jönköping 2018 (November/December) and be want to able to hold a conversation in Swedish with my friends.

How: I've been studying using Duolingo at least 4 hours every week. I also play video games with my friends in Sweden and try my best to interact with them in Swedish vs English. It's really helped me learn and retain what I've learned.

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2017 was the year I let myself succumb to stress and bad health decisions. I put myself in situations that jeopardized my physical and mental health. And over the summer, I reached a point where all of it came crashing down. I was in a dark place that was hard to get out of. And one evening I almost made a permanent mistake. I quit my job the next day.

I realized that I was living up to the expectations of people that could care less about me as a person. Or people who didn't want me around. And when I felt like I couldn't meet their expectations, I felt worthless. I've spent the last 10 years worrying about how much people liked me. I would change my personality, my habits and even my interests to get the approval of others. I was bending over backwards to make myself into a person I wasn't.

So over the last few months I thought long and hard about what I wanted out of life and where I want to be in 10 years. In November, I built a new list of life goals and decided that I would instead do more for me.

My 2018 resolutions aren't new goals. They're the revival of the person I was always meant to be. So this year I plan to use what I've already got (my art, my studies, my fitness) and focus on myself to build up to something better.

Here's to myself.

- Stephanie

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